“Somebody told me that this is the place where everything’s better and everything’s safe.”-One Tree Hill
There are times when life is but about one place, one wish and one dream. Then there are also times when it is about much more. With me both happened, and both at the same time. When all meaning was lost, I found some more in this place. The place which has been the ray of hope, the kick of joy and everything bright my life has been about in the last quarter of a year.
I started naïve to the very concept of living this dream, the very concept of spreading joy. Someone told me I could do this and so I did. That someone then was a stranger but today is also a friend. And since the day I believed in him, here is where I have been. It was early February and I could really accept some help with my life. I was distorted. I hate using the word for the negative vibe it has but it is useless escaping the truth when truth is all you have. I needed some place that would consume all of me. And I found it too, through the right person, at the right time.
I am sure each one of you has a place, a place called home and then a place you’d call your second home. By place I do not necessarily mean a ground to stand on or walls to live within. By place I mean space. The space that lets your wings take flight, the space that lets your aspirations fly. By space, however, I do not mean vacuum. I mean the place you’d call home, the place where there is you and what you love, who you love.
I found this place; it had me to my whole. I had always heard work environment is not the best environment, but this place was different. Everything about it was real, everything joyous. A group of people, who didn’t know each other by name, had not talked to each other ever and yet they knew the secrets. The secret a pen reveals (Okay, my bad. In this case it is a keyboard that expresses it. I’d go with the thoughts that are revealed, the medium matters little.) I had never been so serious about life and events, serious not critically, but just seriously. I hardly ever let duty consume me. But this consumption I liked because it made me live the life of the sunshine land.
“Maybe you had to leave in order to miss a place; maybe you had to travel to figure out how beloved your starting point was.” –Jodi Picoult
It wasn’t until yesterday that I realized this was my starting point. It wasn’t until much later that it dawned what it meant. It wasn’t until midnight that I knew how lovely this was. It was only today morning that I was told it is ending. I was told that this place is moving. It is going away forever. And here I thought places didn’t move, people did, and things did. Life has this weird way of making you realize its manners- right in your face. Doesn’t it?
The question now is, “ Why do all good things have to see an end?” You know why? Because they need to make space for better things to happen, for you to make an exploration. Your land does not end where it starts, but lands end. It is then that you’ve to take to the sky, explore your heights and then return and your land would be there still, maybe slightly changed but still yours.
“A place belongs forever to whoever claims it hardest, remembers it most obsessively, wrenches it from itself, shapes it, renders it, loves it so radically that he remakes it in his own image.” –Joan Didion
And so this place was mine. This place was also yours. There’s nowhere else I’d rather be while I was here but it is time to say goodbye. With this letter of adieu I want to put forward the words held back, this place has given me life. It made me know some people a lot better, and a lot of people slightly better. Every word here was mine own. Every dream here I have dreamt too.
A quantum of solace, a platform of discovery and the gift of a friend, it has been everything to me. True to its name, it provided a kick of joy and some more kicks of laughter. Every person I came to know of here will be remembered forever. I thought I had words for every occasion, but today I run out of them, a little too much, a little too often. But I want this place to be told, how special it truly has been. It will be missed but even more it will be remembered, and cherished. It is like that one place which has consumed all of me to build a new me, a better me. So here I end. This is to the ‘best-est people’ and the ‘best-est boss’ (and the person who let me access this place at all). And just to say- this place is my sunshine land. (And does sunshine end? I doubt. )
“So, you see, my heart is held forever by this place and I cannot leave.”